The past fortnight I haven’t managed to sleep through the night; waking up to start my day at 3.14am, 4.46am, 5.02am; it has got a little better now in my final couple of days before I leave, or maybe I have just got better at the early starts. I am so calm during the day. I am still focussed on finishing out my projects at work.
However at night when my subconscious rises to take control, I am pretty sure I have been spending my sleeping hours in a chaotic kaleidoscope of thoughts: the logistics of travelling three-quarters Read more
I have reached that stage again; the one where I am not sleeping enough and my first thoughts when I bing awake at 4am are ones of organisation, planning and packing. I am not surprisingly dead set exhausted and dragging through the week in a type of fugue state. I am not sure whether it is Wednesday or Thursday – in fact it could be actually be Tuesday and that wouldn’t surprise me either. Read more
Leaving Melbourne, in the end, was remarkably easy. You just get on the plane and don’t think about the fact you don’t know when you will return to live there.
You turn your headphones up so you only exist in your own headspace, and lean your head on the window molding as it’s the first time in 2 weeks that you can sit down for 3 straight hours without needing to organise anything.
You fly over dusty red soils and scrabbly stick trees, the varying blues of the Tasman and then over the yellow tinged green hills of the Auckland coast and you know that you are home. Read more
So weird.You think you know what you are doing and then an opportunity comes along to tempt you to change your plans.
As I have mentioned, I will be spending a year volunteering in Mexico come April (or more to the point, May, by the time I have gallivanted around Europe). And people volunteering don’t earn money. Therefore such people tend to go into a pre-departure money related melt down and sign themselves up for market research and become truly miserly (bringing lunch to work every day, eating their way through their cupboards, even if it means the salt and pepper calamari in the freezer that has frozen into a calamari ice floe) in their efforts to save as much as possible before the departure date. Read more